Current mood:

sore

Fuck
Adam and I got in a car accident last night. I suggested we pick up McDonald's for dinner so on the way home we got rear-ended by some huge van. It was a nightmare. Adam was screaming for a few seconds and I'm sure I was... my chest hurt really bad and then came the panic attack. I was fumbling around in the car trying to fix the burgers (why? I have no idea) and trying to find my glasses. I hit my leg on the dash and other than the panic attack I was fine. Sat on the grass and the cops were there right away. There were 4 cars total. Adam's car got the worst damage. So I light up a cigarette and ask them for paramedics. The paremedics come and they ask me all kinds of questions and I told them my panic attack was worse than I've ever had. Adam had a stiff neck only so he decided to go to the ER later, and he had to talk to the police and everything so I got transported in the ambulance and I was scared. My pulse was about 160. They put me in a room, asked more questions, made me put on a hospital gown. My pulse was 150. Adam's mom came in and I was so glad to see someone I knew. I had to get my leg x-rayed and when I came back my mom was there. I was sooo happy to see her. Adam must have called her after I got in the ambulance. All this time though I keep asking where's Adam, where's Adam? I want Adam here. He finally came in, but he couldn't really bend over to kiss me, but I hugged him and stuff. My pulse was 140. It wasn't going down enough. They gave me something for anxiety. Ativan. Didn't really do much. It made me a little confused though. They put an IV in my arm. They put something in it to make my heart restart or something. I guess it worked though, because they released me, but I couldn't walk for the life of me. Adam was still waiting to be seen so we just left. Got home after midnight. Took some vicodin and went to bed. Today both Adam and I don't have to work, and I am sure glad of that.
Turns out the lady in the big van that hit us had a suspended license. Adam's car got towed this morning, it might not be fixable.

I'm just glad we're not dead.